Between Crying and Praying: Finding My Truth in the Middle of the Storm
Today, I wanted to share something personal with you.
There were many moments where circumstances brought me to my knees. And in those times, I found myself at a crossroads: to cry and stay down there on the floor, or to pray—and rise.
There were times I couldn’t even fathom being thankful—for what wasn’t mine, or for the things that happened in my life that drained me, that pulled me in and left me dry.
It’s great to have tools, resources, and people around you—including people like Judith Kovalski from judithkovalski.com—but I realized that true strength comes when you connect to your truth.
For me, that truth is God.
That belief—in Him and in myself—is the difference between a house built on sand and a house built on rock. One will collapse, and the other will stand.
And it’s okay to recognize where we’re lacking, and where we need another. It doesn’t make you any less. It just means you’re real.
To feel unstable and ungrounded has been one of my greatest struggles, especially when trying to build something lasting—whether it’s a future, a family, or a project. But I’ve learned that those things don’t arrive on our timeline. They come in God’s time. And in the meantime, we follow. We trust.
It’s because of the relationship built over many years—between God and myself, and between me and me—that I’ve written the letter that follows.
I hope it resonates with you. I hope it brings some comfort, or maybe even inspires you, wherever you are in your own process.
Because God will embrace you—but you’ll only feel it when you accept His love and embrace.
Thank you for listening.
Here it is. :)
The hardest thing—yet most fulfilling—has been to be uprooted as many times as I have had, to follow what God showed me to follow. He has yet to be mistaken, and He has yet to make it straightforward. But that's the beauty of it all. He always reciprocated with the level of commitment and surrender that I have exemplified—through actions, not words.
It has been very challenging indeed, and on certain occasions tougher than others, but all share the element of faith. And at this point, I could never lack that faith and love to God, regardless of what comes my way. With everything I got to see and experience, I could never.
Because that's my truth. And that truth is His word. For His light shines through me, so I may spread it among the nations.
I am of love and gratitude for your grace. And I thank you for teaching the many lessons that have come my way, that I am currently undergoing, and that I shall be bestowed upon.
I pray not to avoid what's to come, but to have the patience, love, and intentions to find You in everything—and accept all that's to come with love.
To choose, and not be imposed.
To give, and not lose.
To be with You, and not alone.
To be of Your glory, and not left behind in misery.
God, You are truly great—
and to me, even mightier.
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